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Chamdale just called me asking her to accompany her on the phone to the church on 39th and New York ave. so i did. but that doesnt matter.

im so fucking pressured right now. i need to do a freeking book report and answer some stupid questions on Beowulf. the freeking cobra starship show with BOYS LIKE GIRLS!! and cartel is sold out!! i fucking procatinated, now im fucked, cause i dont have a ticket. and its killing me. i am so nervous i signed up for the NYC show on the 6th for OCK, at trl and sent an email to trl im sooo HAaaaaa i dont understand im lost in my own enigma. im not sure about what i should feel right now. its this nausiating feeling after you have drank a little bit too much milk...rotten milk...

AAAanxiety..brings me back to when i got hospitalized for sever cramps. the lady on the other side of the curtain was bawling. the nurse was trying to convince her to take Ativan. and she hard-headly refused. she screamed about how her husband was the crazy one, the one that should be taking the pills was him. her statement didnt help her at all, her nervousness and refusal made matters worse. well right now thats me.

iwanttobesomebody!

these shoes are 300 dollars,these shoes are 300 dollars,these shoes are 300 fucking dollars..i think you have too many shoes..shut up!

so now, tomorrow is my birthday, im somewhat nervous, i feel nervous. im hyperventilating, i should be doing my Algebra homework. im still a kid. i like school, just not most of the people in it. i can say i can get by with anything just as those "popular kids", im known, and there are no needs to slit my wrists and be all EMOtional about things. i do think low of my self at times, but everyone has one of those days. im very sentimental, though many might not think of me that way. i'm a great listener, but i dont know if im great at advices, cause i dont think my head makes good enough decisions for me, so why would it do for other.
Disaster.
i do things i set my mind to. if i wanna learn the whole HTML code for this page in 2 days i think i would be able to do it. i can force myself to like certain things. since most things in life are all mental, its just a matter of adjusting your mind. i can be very technical, yet not know what being technical is. my friend just tells me that a whole lot, and i have no intentions on looking it up in the dictionary.

i♥reading, i love books. my favorite author is James Patterson. and favorite series are Harry Potter and Charlie Bone. i love Murder mysteries, and suspense books, hence my choice of future career as a forensic researcher, or probably a detective. or just a famous psycho killer..lol.. just kidding (i want to be somebody).

im infactuated with the whole Glam, scene, and corruption of the common celebrity icon. i dont think that anyone would be able to get any dirt on me if i where a huge celeb. probably the amounts of money i would spend in Hot topic, Vans store, Chuck Taylor, and fall out boy, panic!, and other shows. and the fact that i would stalk Chris Brown, and have a love/hate relation ship with rap and Beyonce's music...weird huh..thats just a little bit of me...wait until i really start writting.

Change is kind of good...

wow.. i feel weird writing off of LiveJournal..but whatevers!!..i love writing!.yeah!